A Less-Than Merry Christmas

So. Mom's in the hospital now. Heavy-- seriously guys, like WTF-- vaginal bleeding. I think it has something to do with her prolapse.

So, now she's off to the hospital. Tch. I've been nagging her to make an appointment for months, but she never listens to me.

*sigh* Chances are I'll be spending Christmas alone. Doesn't matter. As long as she's safe and okay, I'll be fine too.

I'm soo exhausted. I really overextended myself today, trying to cover for her and do everything. Pretty sore too, I'll feel that tomorrow... Well, today, now, I guess.

This red wine doesn't have nearly enough alcohol in it. >.> I guess this is what I get for being thankful that 2013 was free of serious medical emergencies (I refuse to count anything that happened to me because I'll always be fine. I'm too stubborn to have things go otherwise). Now I get one at the very end. And on Christmas, no less.

...Screw you, Universe.
If nothing else, it will be a quiet night tonight.

Happy and safe holidays to all, and all the best for the new year.

Ciao,

Lynx

"Fate is like a strange, unpopular restaurant filled with odd little waiters who

bring you things you never asked for and don't always like."

                                                                               -- Lemony Snicket

Uuuugh, REALLY?

Okay, so you know how I had that funeral to go to and I said there was another relative that wasn't too far behind? Well, he died yesterday. Funeral is in a week. I really, really hope this isn't a sign of what's to come in 2014. That. Would Suck. Seriously.

So yeah. December's been... Sub-par, I suppose. What with people dying and me trying to figure out college funding and whatnot. Yikes. Things are moving along way too fast for me; I'm having a hard time keeping up. I glanced at my time and date display and almost had a heart attack. It doesn't feel like only two weeks since I was dancing like an idiot while cleaning my living room and putting up our Christmas tree. That feels like frecking AGES ago. *pout*

Anywho, Lynx wants a shower and a cup of tea to accompany her knitting. She feels as if this blanket is growing, because this last edge is taking for-frecking-ever. So Lynx would like to finish that tonight... She should probably stop speaking/ typing in third person. It's weird.

Ciao,

Lynx 

Once Upon A Time

I did a survey. It was a very long time ago, but I did post it on the previous blog, which I just went through a little while ago out of curiosity. So much has changed, I wonder if my answers have too?

  Everybody has a main best friend. Who's yours?      Hm. Probably Bear.

What are you listening to now?     The Agonist: Panaphobia

 What are your plans for tomorrow?    A funeral, as depressing as that is.

 In the past week, have you lost a friend?  I don't think so. A relative though, yes. Sadly

 Yelled at someone?  Nope.

What did you do today?Ehm... Some knitting. And dishes. And stuff. 

 Do you like flowers?  Love them.

Did you enjoy your day yesterday?  Yes, I do believe I did. Days are gifts

Hate is a strong word, who do you hate?    No one. Hate self-inflicted poison.

 Do you drink a lot of water? Probably not nearly as much as I should

Who did you last lay in a bed/couch/recliner with? Do my cats count? Otherwise, it's been longer                                                                                                                         than I can remember.

Where did you get your last bruise/scratch from? The shower, I think

 Have you ever thought you were gonna die?   Hm. I suppose I have.

 What kind of mood are you in today?   Resigned, I guess.

 What were you doing at 8 this morning?    Sleeping. XD

 How late did you stay up last nigh and why?  Oh, God. It had to be after two in the morning. Bad,                                                                                                                                           bad schedule

Do you miss anyone?   Yeah, I do. A couple people, actually

 Where did you get the top you're wearing?  The Elephant House in Edinburgh, Scotland.

  Ever been lied to be someone you thought would never lie to you? Of course I have.

What are you craving right now?   You know, I actually can't think of anything. I am content.         Do you want kids anytime soon?  Gods, no. I am many things, but I doubt a mother is one of them.

 Are you hiding something from someone  close to you? Not that I can think of, no.

 Is there something you want to tell someone, but can't?  No, not currently.

 Someone says to you now, "Let's go  to a party and get trashed." You say:"No thank you; but take pictures."

Will you sleep alone tonight?  Indeed. A single bed is a bit small for more than one, aye?

 Any plans for next weekend?  Eh. Probably cleaning and getting the house ready for Christmas Eve.

 Is there anyone you would seriously punch  right now if you had the chance?  Heaven's no.

What woke you up today?    My alarm

Anything good happening tomorrow? A funeral. So yeah, no.

Would you buy $1000 shoes if they were the "perfect" pair for you?  lol no. My pocket money is WELL below $1000. Sorry.

 Are you more laid back, or a perfectionist? I am a laid back perfectionist.

Do you find it disgusting when a boy bends over or   jumps and the top of his underwear can be seen? I think high school desensitized me; I have no comment.

When's the last time you deliberately skipped a class? Never. No reason, not worth it. 

 Last time you saw snow?     Well, the ground IS currently covered in it, so... yeah. December.

 Are you excited for next year?    Kind of. I just hope people stay healthy. Me included. lol

What is worse, physical or emotional pain?  Depends on the individual. I know I'd rather have a broken leg than a broken heart.

Can you play pool?  Lol naw. Whatever "skills" I might've had are  probably gone now.

Would you take someone back if they cheated on you?  That would require me dating them to begin with, so irrelevant question.

Do you believe in the saying "What goes around comes around"?  Indeed. Ah, Sweet Karma

 Are you missing anyone or something?   I suppose so... But didn't I answer that already?

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?  10 years is a long time. I guess anything's possible, but I wouldn't count on it.

 How fast does your mood change? Not too fast. I'm pretty consistent/ mellow.

 Do you want your tongue pierced? HELL YES! ... lol no. Sounds painful. And I have a hard enough time speaking properly as it is.

 How many children do you want? As I've said before-- I'm not so sure I'm cut out  to be a mother. I'll stick with my cats.

Are you a jealous person?  You know, I don't think so.

 You're thinking about someone, aren't you?  Consciously? Not so much, no.

 Do you like hugs?   I'm not sure. It's been so long since I've actually had a hug... I'm not sure how I'd respond anymore. >.>

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Absolutely. But I also believe that those second chances need to be earned.

Is there someone who continuously lets you down? Unfortunately, yes.

 Are you wasting your time on someone?  No. I don't waste time.

 Would you ever get a tattoo?    I have four. So yes, I guess I would.

Do you get along with girls?   Yeah. Where the flip did that come from?

Have you ever slapped someone in the face?    No. 

 Have you ever licked someone's forehead or cheek? Indeed I have. *chuckle*

Any upcoming events you're excited about? Well, Christmas is soon... 

Is there a secret you've never told your parents?  Yes. Though fewer than before.

Have you ever dyed your hair?  Yes I have.

 Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?    Yes. My dad's flannel shirts are extra comfy.

It's Too Early For This

Noon doesn't seem early, but I don't think there's ever a good time for this kind of news. Another relative passed away on Monday. His funeral is tomorrow.

He had cancer. Lots of cancer. It was in his bones, and in his brain, his kidneys were shutting down. I can't imagine he was comfortable, but I hope his passing was at least peaceful. His wife is taking it hard, I don't doubt. It's always hard but... Man, I'm not looking forward to tomorrow.

So there's another one gone. And apparently another still is at his final days, seeing as they're throwing the word Hospice around. I may well have another funeral to attend before the year is out. If not then, then I'm certain the first part of next. 2013 has been... bumpy.

Still, we move on. We have to. The world keeps turning no matter how much we struggle. Time waits for no one. With every black cloud there remains a silver lining. The dead might be lost, but never forgotten. So this Christmas season we should all be that much more thankful for the family we still have. Nothing lasts forever, so we should cherish our kin while we still can.

Now, enough of that. As I said, time waits for no one, and I have cookies to bake and a blanket to finish... Dishes to do and laundry. At least my knee finally fixed itself. I'd be grateful to not have to deal with that again-- I like being able to walk without a limp, it's faster.

Ciao,

Lynx

"The timing of death, like the ending of a story, gives a changed meaning to what preceded it."

                                                                                                       --Mary Catherine Bateson

I am Puzzled

Can somebody please tell me why the fish I can't straighten my knee? It's been like this all day and it just won't... Do what I tell it to. >.> Does this count on my "My Knees are Stupid" counter thingy? Seriously, what the heck? It's like it's locked... But in a slightly bent position. It feels like the kneecap isn't quite right... Or something. Very irritating. Wellp, guess I'd better get to putting it back, if I can... Been trying all day with no luck. -.- Why can't I have normal problems like everyone else? *sadface*

Lynx. Yeah. I'm lazy and don't feel like formatting. *shrug*

It Looks So Pink...

"It" being my Christmas tree. I actually put it up early this year. Yaaay! This means I won't have to worry about it twenty minutes before the family gets here Christmas Eve. Yay again. But... It's so pink-ish looking. Like every other light is a pink one. Then again, I suppose that shouldn't be surprising. Pink is related to red, and red projects the farthest. *shrug* Yay for science. There's a lot of yay in this post.

I have no idea what I want to cook for dinner. I forgot to pull stuff out. Including bread. Dur. I'll think of something. After I let my body decompress and my brain stops spinning from going around the tree eighty-million times... @.@ Spinning bad.

I probably looked like such a dope earlier too, when I was cleaning the living room. Am I the only one that dances randomly while Swiffer-ing? My dance moves SUCK. lol.

Sooo yeah. The tree is up, the living room is clean, and I'm hungry but too lazy to get up and make something right now. Yep. All's well.

Ciao,

Lynx