What a Mess

That's what I am, yessir. I let myself drown in sorrow yesterday, and continued to wallow in it today... Which is a real shame because it was a beautiful day and I probably could've done something productive instead of laying in bed and staring at the window, moping about this and that, and oh, why couldn't I have done this differently, and what would have happen if I'd done this instead and all sorts of other things that can't be changed and therefore aren't worth my time...

I know why I did it though. It was familiar- a reflex almost. That's what depressed people do. They mope and let the sorrow and pain and stress drain them of all their energy. Well, that's enough. I've got to pick myself up and dust myself off- I can try again tomorrow, and it will be a better day. I know this, because I'm going to MAKE it a better day, just as I MADE today a miserable one.

I can't make my inbox fill up, no... But I should be at least a little grateful for the lull, since that means that I've finished all these damnable college forms. ^^ Perspective, perspective. It's a hard choice to make sometimes, where you're going to look at things from, and that choice governs EVERYTHING, at least until you decide to move for a different view... Speaking of which:

I'm going to take a shower. And then I'm going to throw in a load of this laundry that was supposed to be done this weekend. And while that's going, I'm going to turn my music up loud and I'm going to KNIT. I want things to go back to some semblance of normal, some reminder of the stable things in my life. The only thing not quite normal about this idea is that my room will be clean, which is such a rarity that it is just plain odd.

Ciao,

Lynx

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